A Little Off My Game...

Readers, family, friends, all of you. I feel as though I have been a little out there lately and I'm sorry if my material has seemed to lack it's "goodness" maybe. I don't know, maybe it was never good, but lately it just hasn't seemed to be any good whatsoever, and I'm sorry. Tonight, I have been thinking over some things, and maybe it's because of this weekends events or just the way things have seemed to change in my life recently, but I really want to be apart of something great. I want to push forward, and make something of myself. If that includes Rite Aid, and being their best employee and pushing through and being great because of it, well, awesome. I don't really know what this means, or where this seems to be taking me, but I know that I want to be great right where I am.
I have an amazing girlfriend. Kaylee Cobb. She has been such an inspiration to me and things I've been striving to do and I can't say that I can thank her enough for being so supportive when things seemed to be at their worst.
My family. No, they aren't the greatest at times, but when I need them, they seem to be there...well when they wanna be, but they're there regardless, somehow.
My friends. You guys. The true friends that have really stuck it out with me, you guys have really helped me in ways you will never understand, and I thank you. Even when I lost all want to do anything, all I could think about was sleeping til 1PM and playing VGs, but you guys helped me thru it, even when you fed my addiction a little too much...ha!
My Lord. Jesus, You are honestly my best friend. I have shafted You over and over again, and even tho I fear You, and I should, You are really intimidating sometimes, You really stick it out, You push thru it, hell, You are the only real reason I can push thru it myself. Really, You are the one that allows me to do anything because instead of just being there, you pick me up and carry me thru it. You've endured it so I can. You, God, you are my Father, my Savior, my Mentor, my Life. I can't even begin to express who You are, because if I tried I wouldn't be describing you, I would be describing things that are maybe a .001% of You, and that's not justice, so I'll just praise you, and hopefully that joyful noise will suffice until I can tackle You when I finally get to see YouR face. Breathless. I'd say quit doing that, but You can't help it...You are just being You, and even tho You could just stand there and do nothing, that nothing would be far beyond any something I could ever accomplish. Enamored. Not infatuated. Not this halfway tangible, almost fake kind of definition of love, but true intoxication, a swelling in my spirit, the depths of my sole, puny, minimal, blah existence. You breathed life into me, because You, the Creator of the Universe, wanted a relationship with me...I can't even try and understand that, I mean, I've tried, but it only makes me feel crazy. I can't stop going on and on about You, because You have it all, You have ALL of ME.

Just thought You should know, if You're the only one that reads this that this is all about You...and that a-l-l isn't limited to this blog, it's not even limited to my spec, my flair, my evaporating little "puh" of existence. You can have it all, You already do, I just wanted to say that.

-DK