(Untitled) And You'll See Why

I was trying so hard to write a song a minute ago, and nothing would come out right, I hate when that happens. I have had so many things pop in my head the last few days, and all of it seems to fall short of my "blog standards". I never write anything super long, just a little blurbs or thoughts, and things I've learned lately, and looking back it all seems so small and insignificant. I'm not really dissatisfied with my previous blogs, just wanting more. I wish my mind could type for me sometimes, because sometimes what I intend to write about just won't come out. Lately this is what I've had running through my head...

"It's a lot harder to move back home than it was to move away."

I say that because, moving back here there are things that bring back old memories, some good, some not so good. Things have changed here, for sure, and I'm glad that Griffin has decided to change some things. There are different things that I've noticed since I've been back that I didn't when I would visit, businesses no longer here, new ones popping up. Buildings being renovated...stuff like that.
As for the people, I haven't really allowed myself to connect, and there's a perfectly good explanation for that. The majority of the inhabitants of Griffin are Gossip Mongers. Yes, I said it! They don't know how to do anything else but talk about other people, make up stuff and sticking their noses where they don't belong, and I got a little taste of that shortly after I came back and decided that I would keep my business to myself. My family and very close friends know my what's going on in my life, and that's it. I'm not going to tell just anyone anything, because they more than likely will stretch the truth or even lie and that is something that has definitely not changed and probably never will here. Generation after generation will be subject to that garbage and it's not healthy, for the community, for anyone. I have actually decided not to attend church in this area because of it. I have seen my parents church torn apart time and time again due to it. I have seen most of the churches if not all in this city poisoned with this and I won't be a part of something like that. Yes, these churches do have good things going for them, and I understand that all churches have their faults, but if it is involved in something that will be stunting my spiritual growth on a regular basis, I want none of it.

I have decided to drive a little ways to be a part of a couple churches that I know will feed my spiritual hunger and my desire to have a standing relationship with God.

"Gossip is a plague and if you don't realize it, then you are sorely mistaken and I feel sorry for you."

As any human being, I have been involved in gossip, I'm sure you're aware of that, but I have also pulled myself away from that, and now I won't allow myself to be involved in it whatsoever.
Call me out if you will. I'm not going to tell you anything other than the truth, and if you think otherwise, I don't know what to tell you. I'm not sitting here trying to preach at you, and I have never wanted to sound that way, and I know that I am no better than anyone. I am just letting you know where I stand, just like I do with all of my other blogs.

"I'm tired of no one saying anything."

Everyone knows that there is a disease ravaging the church. Yes, it's sin! Yes, it's selfishness! Yes, it's so many things! But we as a church, need to be specific people!! If we're not willing to see that the very core of what is stunting our spiritual growth is the very poison that is coming out of our mouths towards each other, than we have a real problem. Scripture says that, speaking of Christ, "He came to His own and His own did not receive Him", but now that is becoming the case for all of us. We're sitting around and we know people's business, so we discredit any good that can come out of their mouths. God didn't say that we had to be clean fish to come to Him.

"He catches us dirty so HE can clean us."

I'm sorry if you feel like you are better than anyone else on this earth, including maniacs that commit genocide on their own people. The only thing that makes us holy is Christ inside of us. If we don't start to realize what it tearing apart the church and has been for the last however many centuries than our words will fall on deaf ears, because people are tired of hearing empty words. They don't want to hear how we should love one another and very plainly see us hating each other. They see Christians hating Christians. They see that we are the hypocrites, we are the sinful, we are the ones that have turned millions away from the Word of God with our lifestyles, and if we don't change something very soon, then this disease will become an epidemic and that will be the very thing that will send countless souls to hell.
I'm not being judgmental. All I've ever wanted is for the words I have written to be a tool that God uses to touch lives.

Please don't discredit what He has to say through me because of decisions I have made at any point in my life. The entire point of my existence as a believer in Him is to glorify Him. He has given me life, and all I offer is my servant's heart to do whatever He calls me to do.

Thank you...