Maybe I Shouldn't...

Okay. So I just read this whole conversation, and it was really troubling. Who the parties involved are doesn't really have anything to do with it, it's just the whole ordeal. If someone came to me and told me how much of a terrible person I am because of the decisions I've made, they would probably be 100% on point. My past is my past, and I have made some really poor decisions, from some of those decisions I have learned, and others I've actually had to make a time or two before I actually did learn from it.
With that being said, this conversation...this individual starts off the conversation trying to give the recipient a guilt trip about betrayal, among other pretty heavy accusations. All of this being based on the fact that this person is hurt. Listen dude, just because you're hurt doesn't give you the right to hurt other people. You think that your family hates you because you have these preconceived notions that they feel a certain way towards you...get over yourself dude, you have no idea what they've sacrificed for you. You're not seeing the big picture, you're seeing what you want to see. You blame every single person in existance for being selfish, yet when things don't appease your desires you throw a miniture tantrum and say everyone is your enemy trying to get you and hurt you, dude, get over yourself, really.
Yeah, so you were hurt...who hasn't been hurt?? You are being absolutely riduculous and if you think otherwise look in the mirror and ask yourself if you're really offering the world a selfless person...you're no martyr! You've hit a rough spot, your life is probably a big huge rough spot according to you. But you are living, you are breathing, and maybe you should consider that a blessing, ya know?
I'm really sorry that you feel so hurt by others actions. It happens dude! You have so many problems and you have all this weight on you, but how much of it has now become this routine because you're so used to the pain...now you're a self-proclaimed, self-inflicted macsocist. I have been there...no not the exact same stuff, but pain is a part of life. I've made some awful decisions and it landed me in some really bad places, but I came through it. My parents never gave me the rough treatment, although I did feel a little neglected at times, but I'm the youngest of 6 kids, so it wasn't neglect, they just had to multitask like pro's. Anyway, my point being, there are always going to be things that you're going to get in your head because you feel a certain way, but because the world doesn't revolve around you, you're probably wrong, and under these circumstances, honestly, there's no way that you're right.
You have a soul, and you are loved. Sometimes you won't feel that way, but it's the truth. People are going to always do things that are selfish because people what to do what's in their best interest, that's just how the world turns. I'm sorry that you feel so betrayed, but you're not. What has betrayed you is your own self, so get over yourself and live...get over this whole mindset that you've been done wrong...because you haven't!

the end.

DK